Carrie Holland-Fischer

Carrie’s testimony: Aborted But Survived

If you ever want to know what a miracle looks like, just look at me. Hi, my name is Carrie Fischer, and I would like to share my story with you. Abortion almost claimed my life… BUT GOD!!! Miracle of all Carrie Holland-Fischermiracles, I survived an attempted abortion on my life…in other words, I am an abortion survivor!! My mother already had my two older siblings when she dated my birth father. One day she realized she was pregnant and told him. He told her he wanted nothing to do with the baby and walked out of the relationship. My mother was devastated and didn’t know what to do. She felt hopeless and abandoned and thought abortion was her only option. She went to a clinic and had an abortion procedure performed. She would soon find that the abortion had failed and that she was still pregnant. Then, on June 10th, 1969, I was born.

I would not learn about the abortion until I was in my teens, but I remember as a little girl, the recurring dreams I had of a baby in the womb fighting for its life. I could hear the cries and screams of this baby, and it frightened me. I had no idea that the baby I was dreaming about was me. The dreams continued for several years until my grandmother told me one day that my mother had tried to kill me, and that my birth father didn’t want me. I just couldn’t help but wonder what she was talking about. Why would my own mother want to kill me? I finally sat her down and asked her about all this, and mom started crying, and that’s when she explained to me about my birth father and the abortion.

Because of the effects of the abortion, I was born with a facial disfigurement. Doctors also told my mother that I wouldn’t be normal, and that I would be mentally retarded. Society had labeled me as ugly and unacceptable. I was made fun of all during school, and even the teachers made fun of me. I was a nobody and I didn’t matter. I was told I’d never have a normal life, never have a job, date, or get married and have a family. I thought I may as well just give up on any dreams. I’d never be much of anything anyways. I heard those lies so much, I believed them and they became my identity. I was bitter and angry. I hated life and I blamed God for all my pain and hurt. In my thirties, I attempted suicide. I swallowed a bottle of anti-depressants and drank a whole bottle of wine. I laid down hoping not to wake up. BUT GOD!!!

I woke up the next morning like I normally would, and amazingly, with absolutely no effects at all from the pills and alcohol!! It was then I realized God had a destiny and plan for my life. God began a work in me and restored my self-confidence. I could say I was wonderfully beautiful and I truly loved me. I would no longer believe the lies I’d been told. I’d discovered who I was in Christ. I had been healed and set free from the hurts and pains of the past, and God is making many of my dreams reality! Today I am happily married, and even though we recently miscarried our first child, Zion Benjamin, God has given us a renewed vision to press on with the calling we’ve received. My husband and I are both very pro-life and we seek to take this message of hope and healing to the world.

Back to the abortion and how God gave my mother (who I’d lived with until my marriage), and I the strength and courage to share our story. Abortion causes unspeakable guilt and pain. It took my mother years to forgive herself and accept God’s forgiveness. Abortion leaves scars that take years to heal. It took me a long time to get past the hurt, anger, and pain. By God’s mercy and grace, I am free to share my story. My hope is that by doing so, lives can be saved, healed, and restored. I know there are many who have been affected by abortion. My message to you today is that there is hope and healing after abortion. I would love the opportunity to come and share my story in person and minister words of hope and encouragement to those who are struggling. Please feel free to contact me for more information, or to schedule a speaking engagement with your church or group.

 

For more information on Carrie’s ministries, please visit:
http://facebook.com/wonderfullybeautiful
http://facebook.com/groups/unitedforlife
http://facebook.com/SecondGeneration4Life
http://cafepress.com/SecondGeneration
A link to a television interview featuring Carrie is included on the Abortion Survivors in the News page on this site. Carrie can be reached for interviews and speaking engagements at wonderfullybeautiful69@yahoo.com.